Here I am, about an hour from my birthday and I am reflecting on my life. I have gone through a lot in my 30 years on Earth. I have lived through events that you wouldn’t believe and I came out on top. I have learned a lot of lessons and I have learned them the hard way. There have been times that I was dragged through the dirt but I came out clean in the end.
In my 30 years I have had my heart broken, I have broken hearts, I have lost loved ones, and I have gained new ones. I lost my eldest son and I apologize for anything and everything I ever did Melissa. My family and friends stretch far and beyond and I care for them and appreciate the part they play in my life. I am happy with my life and what I have accomplished. This is only the beginning; I have much more to give. Get ready, the next 30 years are going to kick ass. Thank you and Happy Birthday to me.
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By Ricardo — 2 years ago
Written by –
Ryan Dedmon, M.A.
Outreach Director, 911 Training Institute
It’s raining in Southern California. Again. It has rained here 3 days a week for the last month, breaking only long enough for things to dry out before the next storm front rolls in. It has rained more in the last month than it has the last 3 years. I suppose that’s a good thing. California has long suffered from a drought, but rain makes everything more miserable.
We Californians love our sunshine and we expect the weather to be a tropical sunny and 75 all year long, so we are often ill-prepared for rainy weather. A little water falls from the sky and we all seem to forget how to drive; we navigate around countless traffic collisions and stalled out vehicles; traffic congestion, as if not already bad enough in California, becomes a living nightmare; and most of us don’t own a quality umbrella. Thus, we arrive late for work soaking wet.
Earlier this week was one such day for me. There I was stuck in heavy traffic because the intersection up ahead was on 4-way red-flash due to flooding from an apocalyptic rainstorm. My commute was taking me three times as long as it should. The car in the lane to my left pulled up next to me and I witnessed the most precious moment.
There was a 5-year-old little girl sitting in a booster in the rear passenger seat. Her little head, covered under a big yellow rain hat, kept turning back-and-forth from the window to her mother in the front seat. The girl seemed to look right through me as her face and palms were pressed up against the window. Suddenly, she spun her head around with the biggest smile on her face and was bouncing up and down in her seat as her mother rolled down the rear window. The girl immediately stuck both her arms out the window palms up, as if trying to catch the drops of water falling from the sky. I smiled at her innocence, but then she surprised me. The girl threw off her hat, showing off two brown ponytails, and stuck her entire head out the window. She giggled uncontrollably as she stuck her tongue out catching raindrops, her hair and face getting soaked in the downpour. The smile on the face of that child depicting pure elation gave me pause to think… at what point in my life did I lose that childlike innocence when I felt so much joy from simply getting wet in the rain?
I was sitting in traffic on a rainy day thinking about the conference call I would be on later that afternoon, the emails I needed to reply to in my inbox, the upcoming project deadlines I needed to meet, and my calendar availability for the following week. I don’t have time to stop and enjoy the rain. Life is busy. “Adulting” is hard.
As a former police telecommunicator, I hated the rain. Working rainy days were always the worst. The attitude of callers unexplainably reflected the gloomy weather. Callers never failed to extend their personal sense of self-entitlement. Calls for police response were either traffic collisions or false burglary alarm activations, both caused by the rainy weather. Stupid rain. The ironic part about all of this: I now teach stress-management training classes for public-safety telecommunicators helping them to optimize their health and wellness.
As we grow older and transform into adults, we fail to find joy in many of the simple things from our childhood that once brought us happiness. We get busy; we have responsibilities. Our perspective becomes distorted by noise. We need to reshape our perspective if we want to improve our wellness. Stop and make time to smell the roses, roll in fields of grass, dance in the moonlight, enjoy the simple things we often take for granted… and maybe, just maybe, then even our rainy days will bring us rays of sunshine happiness.Post Views: 622
By Ricardo — 7 years ago
Good morning! I’d like to thank everyone for reading up on Jabber Log. A lot of new things have been added and they have been running rather smooth. The transition from WordPress.com to WordPress.org has been an experience. I lost a few things as well as the ability to automatically send out emails to my subscribers. I went from 153 to 0. I’m not sure why this happened but I still have the email addresses for everyone and I have been trying to find a better way to reach my readers. I was going to use MailChimp but through a conversation with a colleague I decided against it. A family member of mine did mention a service named TinyLetter that was recently acquired by MailChimp. The service allows for a simple newsletter to be sent out to email subscribers, and features a way to continue a discussion with those who reply to the newsletter.
I will supply a short video below that describes the service and add a link to the main page of Jabber Log for others to subscribe. This will be the first time using this service so please comment or reply when the newsletter is sent out. I want to know how well this works out. If a bi-weekly or monthly newsletter is better than an email every time a new post is added, I would like to know. The point is to keep you interested in reading Jabber Log rather than get the feeling of being spammed with post after post. For those who have recently subscribed I have added your email addresses to the list. Those who subscribed before the transition have also been added. Now, don’t think this is something you have to subscribe to. You can easily unsubscribe but know that I do appreciate your continued loyalty. If this works I will be deleting the regular email subscription and using the newsletter instead. It will feature recent posts and upcoming stories or events. Thanks again for reading and your continued support. Make sure to comment and let me know your choice or opinion on the idea of a bi-weekly or monthly newsletter rather than an email each time a post is added to Jabber Log. Cheers!Post Views: 493
By Ricardo — 8 years ago
Jabber Log has recently hit 9,909 views. I can’t tell you how happy I am to be doing this and that I’ve reached this number. I have shared stories that have made you laugh, reflect, and maybe even grossed you out a little. The main thing is that you were able to laugh and get a kick out of my hijinks. I thank you very much for reading and as I’ve said before, there is more to come. With that said, I have decided to add a blog roll to my blog. This will hold links to other blogs that I have come across on WordPress and the point is to help others by being seen on my blog. I feel that by doing this I can not only help others but help myself as well. I love writing and if it was up to me I would do it as a career but I’m not sure how to swing it just yet.
I have hit some milestones with Jabber Log and I can’t even begin to tell you how happy I was when I landed on the “Freshly Pressed” section of WordPress. My numbers exploded with the post, “Saturday Morning Cartoons…I miss you.” I was on the homepage of WordPress for about a day or so and the discussion between readers was excellent. It was amazing to read about others and their memories on something that I remember fondly. Next up in my line of milestones was getting the opportunity to design a banner for none other than Jackie, a beautiful and talented DJ with WGRD. She had seen my blog and dug my banner design and asked how I had done it. I jumped at the chance to explain and offered my services. We have kept in contact since then and I even featured her in a post titled, “A Jackie of all trades“. The next milestone involved a very talented, up and coming Country singer/song writer named Maddie Larkin. I was given the opportunity to type up a post featuring her and her debut album, “Letters From My Cold Heart“. I was more than honored to do this and the album is a must listen for fans of all music. If I had to choose one song to headline as the top single of her album I would choose, “Give it up”. My words cannot do the song enough justice so you will have to check it out for yourself. Believe me, you will not be disappointed.
More opportunities are coming my way and I am enjoying every moment of it. I have some new ideas involving social experiments. I had a lot of fun doing them and I’m thinking about getting your ideas on what you would like to see from me or if you happen to do some, I can then post it on Jabber Log. There are more ideas being thrown around and as they come I will post them up. If you would like to be featured in a post please send an email to email@example.com and give me some information about yourself and why you would like a feature. You can spread the word on your new band, album, artwork, stories, events, or your personal blog. If you would like to be part of my blog roll let me know by email or comment here. We can help each other out with mutual adds and spread the word. Thank you very much to all those who have read and continue to read Jabber Log. Thank you very much to those I have featured and visit them by clicking their links below. Keep on reading and let’s “Come together…right now.”Post Views: 356