Here I am, about an hour from my birthday and I am reflecting on my life. I have gone through a lot in my 30 years on Earth. I have lived through events that you wouldn’t believe and I came out on top. I have learned a lot of lessons and I have learned them the hard way. There have been times that I was dragged through the dirt but I came out clean in the end.
In my 30 years I have had my heart broken, I have broken hearts, I have lost loved ones, and I have gained new ones. I lost my eldest son and I apologize for anything and everything I ever did Melissa. My family and friends stretch far and beyond and I care for them and appreciate the part they play in my life. I am happy with my life and what I have accomplished. This is only the beginning; I have much more to give. Get ready, the next 30 years are going to kick ass. Thank you and Happy Birthday to me.
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By Ricardo — 6 years ago
Between the hours of 7pm-midnight during the week you can hear the voice of Jackie over the airwaves at WGRD. She provides her listeners with the hard hitting rock that the station is known for. A recent graduate of Ferris State University, this inspiring powerhouse has not let anything hold her back from branching out into other outlets of media. An avid runner and pageant competitor, this girl is one to watch out for. When she’s not blessing her listeners with the rock gods of today, she can be found on television and taking part in photo shoots.
Currently Jackie has entered a contest to win an editorial with Teen Vogue. Contestants are asked to upload and submit a photo that expresses their own personal style. Teen Vogue will then post their top 10 finalists on September 12 2011 and then it will be up to the readers to decide on the winner. This is where you can help Jackie come one step closer to winning this contest. I will supply a link at the end of this post where you can go and vote. Simply register and comment on the photo. It’s as simple as that. The picture within this post is the one that was submitted to Teen Vogue and I must say that I dig it. In her own words Jackie explains,
“This is a very modern strapless dress. I describe it as a “punk princess” its adorned in zippers up and down the bodice of the dress, with a tulle underlay. The bowler hat tops it off for a fun 80’s punk princess look!”
Now let’s do our part by heading to Teen Vogue and vote for Jackie! From the airwaves, to television, to modeling and acting, this girl knows how to make things happen. She is truly a Jackie of all trades.Post Views: 26
By Ricardo — 6 years ago
“The entertainment for this evening is not new, you’ve seen this entertainment through and through you have seen your birth, your life, your death….you may recall all the rest. Did you have a good world when you died – enough to base a movie on?”
— Jim Morrison (An American Prayer)
I am 30 years old and I can safely say that I have lived a crazy enough life so far to base a movie on. From what you have read on Jabber Log you might agree that some of the stories would be great to see on film. They will forever be embedded within my brain and just like any movie it requires a soundtrack to keep it moving along. I have dealt with a lot in my life and it seems that there has always been a certain band or song that has accompanied me through that specific chapter in my life. Just a few that I can think of are Korn’s “Blind” during high school and certain rebellious and creative moments. The Doors, Jimi Hendrix, and Janis Joplin during my days trying to get through my parents divorce. It was a pretty “mellow” and “green” time. A euphoric ride through a harsh time but I don’t regret any of it.
A song that really sticks out is “Soul To Squeeze” by The Red Hot Chili Peppers. Every time I hear it I zone out and flash back to one of the times I saw my eldest son Richie. When I first started seeing him again after his mother and I split up he was about a year and a half and it was bittersweet. My family from Florida was visiting and we had gone to a cookout at my Tio Steve’s house. I remember seeing all of my cousins and their kids and I was depressed. I wanted to have my boy with me and spend some time with him but I couldn’t. We were all lining up to eat and I noticed my mom was gone. I was told she had gone to get some more plates and napkins from the store but it seemed like she had been gone longer than just a trip to the store. When she returned I saw she had someone small in her arms. I dropped my plate of food and ran toward my mom. She had Richie with her and I was emotional like you wouldn’t believe. He looked toward me and jumped into my arms. I held him so tight and I held back from crying. We spent a few hours together and it was one of the greatest times in my life. At the end of our visit he reached for me as my mom tried to put him in the car. He cried and cried that he didn’t want to leave. It broke my heart…
I was able to see him a few days later and we spent the day at my Tia Cruz’s house. I didn’t want to let him out of my sight. He gave me hugs and sat on my lap. At the end of the day I sat in back of my mom’s car with Richie as she drove us back to drop him off. She had the radio on and as we drove off “Soul To Squeeze” came on.
“Yes! This is the Red Hot Chili Peppers mijo.”
He got a big smile and threw his hands up and yelled, “Chili Peppers!”
We swayed back and forth as the music played. We pretended to play instruments and I didn’t want the moment to end. When it did we said our goodbyes and till this day I remember and cherish that moment. Whenever I hear that song I think of him and the time we shared during that song. As I type and fight back my tears I have to remember that this is a good memory and I can always play the song to flash back when I feel the need. There are many more songs that fill the soundtrack to my life and this is one of them. I now have a need for some “Soul To Squeeze”, I love you mijo…until that day.Post Views: 18