If you didn’t know, the world was supposed to end this past Saturday. Although no one believed it to begin with I bet some of you were thinking about what you might do if in fact the world did end. I know I thought about what I might do or say. So what would you have done? Stop reading and sit a minute. Think about everything you might have wanted to do, if you were able to, in those last moments.
Had it been the end and there were only a few moments left, I would pray with my family. I would tell them that I loved them very much and then I would have packed them into our car and drove about ten minutes south of where I live. In those final moments I would drive to see my son Richie. If I had one shot I’d go and speak to him. I’d introduce my wife as well as his younger brother and myself.
There would be chaos all around us and I know that his family would want him for themselves. Who could blame them, I know I would want the same but in this scenario I would be a fool not to go and say something to him. He’s eleven years old and since the last time I saw him I have practiced over and over what I would say to him. Had it been the end and we were face to face for at least one moment, I know that my over practiced speech would not work. No amount of practice would help in that situation whether it is the end of the world or not.
I honestly don’t know what I would say. I can only imagine that I would be vomiting words of nonsense and my emotions would be in overdrive. As I type this it is hard to imagine what it would be like. I get nervous just thinking about it. If I had that chance I would take it. I’m a stranger to my eldest son and in those last moments I would blurt out who I was and that I wanted to see him. I would take the chance at sharing a hug before the world ended and I would hope and pray that the blood ran deep enough that he would feel it. That he would know I was who I said I was.
Had Saturday been our last day on Earth, this is what I would have done. I would have taken my family to meet Richie. Although you don’t know me Mijo, I love you. Until that day my son…
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By Ricardo — 2 years ago
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This morning I woke up as my husband was getting ready to head into work. Today is his normal day off, yet he is going in to work some overtime and to lead the range training for the other officers. I saw his range uniform laying there. He got dressed, I gave him a kiss, told him his butt looked good in those pants and off he went. I proceeded to start laundry, and I see his uniform needs washed. I broke down. Why? I can’t tell you exactly why it was that moment that sent me into tears, all I know is that, that moment sparked a million thoughts running rampant through my head.
What if this is the last time I wash this uniform? What if I get “the call”? What if something bad happens?
Then my mind turns to hate; Why don’t all these idiots understand? Why are they killing MY family? If I had it my way, I’d just… and I stopped myself. Hate is powerful, and in a matter of seconds, I had so much rage inside of me against these Officer Murdering Cowards. (Okay, maybe there’s still a little bit) I should not give these monsters that satisfaction.
Back to more questions that run through my head as I’m in tears. Why does he do it? Wait… HOW does he do it? You can ask any officer WHY they do their job, and you will likely get a very politically correct answer of, “to serve my community” which for most is VERY true. However, “WHY” is a very loaded word…
Why?- I can’t speak for every officer’s “why”, or even my husbands, but what I can tell you is how I interpret my husband’s “why” from what I’ve seen, so I’m going to throw out a few scenarios of what I think drives my husband to be a Police Officer.
First off, children. There is no doubt that helping children is a driving force behind my husbands service to our community. Example: I receive a phone call from him, “Babe, do we have any of the boys old gloves, hats, scarves that don’t fit them anymore and are still in good shape?” Me, “Yah.” Him, “Could you run them into the PD now?” Me, wondering, but without question, I take them in. He thanks me, gives me a kiss and goes back inside. He returns home that night to explain that he had a woman who was caught stealing gloves and hats from a local store. She was stealing them for her children, because it was cold outside and she did not have the means to afford them. So he gave the bag full of hats, gloves and scarfs, to this woman for her children. A selfless act of kindness and support in what is possibly this woman’s worst day. All for the children.There is a distinct difference in his facial expressions when he returns home on a day that he has had to handle any case where children are being mistreated. Children that are beaten, children that are sleeping in homes full of cockroaches, and the only bed they have is a rug on the floor. It kills him to see this, knowing that this is a reality for some children.
Another reason, to help others. A couple months back, and some of you Marshalltown people will remember these people, there was a group of 3 “train hoppers” traveling through Marshalltown. They had two dogs with them, and no where to stay. One of their dogs was hit by a car. My husband, in his squad, picked up the dog, took it to the vet, contacted a local rescue personally, that paid the bill for the dog’s treatment. A few days later, these 3 individuals had to spend some time in jail. My husband arranged for placement for the dogs, while the individuals were in jail. Once released, he took these people dog treats, and dog food, before they left town. It turns out these people ended up causing a lot of trouble in town after my husband’s kindness towards them, however, he did not doubt his help for them.
Another that will sit with me for a long time; mostly because it scared me & I told him he should no longer do that. After a long shift at work my husband returned home, slept then got up early to go help a fellow officer on a home project. While returning home from said project, my husband drove past the jail. He saw an individual that he had arrested the night before walking on the highway, headed towards town, after being released in the morning. My husband, the arresting officer of this man, the man who took this individual to jail, stopped and offered this guy a ride back to town. The individual got into the car, not realizing it was the officer that had arrested him at first, thanked my husband for picking him up, then looked over… silence. Followed by a “holy crap, your the officer. Wow, Thank You SO MUCH! That is so amazing, I can’t believe”…. and so on.
So to answer my own question of why. That is “WHY.” To help people to help children, despite their background, their color of skin, their age, their looks, their lifestyle.
Now, onto the hard part, HOW?? I struggle with this, because I can guarantee you, that I absolutely could not be a police officer. There is just no way. I do not have the ability to keep my calm and cool in situations that they deal with.
How do they day after day, experience people at their worst moments, and return home at night to their families and say, “Oh work was good.” ?
How do they go to a job where they know that there are people out there that want to murder them, because they wear a uniform?
How do they miss endless holidays, birthdays, family gatherings etc. all to put on a uniform that is all too often met with hate.
How do they, get spit at, hit, screamed at, called names, and stand their ground without yelling back, without screaming back, without holding a grudge?
How do they face evil daily, and get up early to go in and work extra shifts on their day off?
I don’t have the answer. I simply do not understand, how. I can tell you that if you ask my husband his answer will likely be a very downplayed response like, “Oh, it’s just part of the job. Not that big of a deal. Ya get used to it and don’t take it personally.” Again, I can’t explain how, and I assume most officers do not want us to know, how, because their version of “how” is too intense for us to handle.
I do know that being an Officer’s wife has changed me. Any Officer’s spouse that tells you otherwise is lying. It’s not a bad change, but a “new normal.” What is normal for your family on your husband of wives day off, differs slightly for my family. Before I knew my husband, I never had a strong tie to law enforcement, I knew a few officers and I respected them, but was still pissed at them when I got a speeding ticket….or 5. I met my husband, I still had a very misconstrued view of how they do their jobs. After awhile I learned, that what I had thought, from all of my years of experience watching Law & Order, was well, all wrong. I’m sure I asked a million questions that my husband thought were annoying, but he answered them. After awhile you stop asking. You realize that, the last thing they want to do is answer a million questions about work when they are finally home from work and able to relax. So you learn to ask the simple, “How was work?” get the typical, “Oh it was good” and then move on. No details needed. My husband needs to know that home is the place where he doesn’t have to relive the evil, tragedy, and anger that he see’s while at work. As an Officers spouse you will also experience a new “normal.” Suddenly people you barely know or talk to, believe that you are now their personal police person. If I had a quarter for everytime someone asked me a police related question, well my husband wouldn’t need to be a cop anymore. Or people that automatically think it’s okay for them to tell you what they think about your spouse. My personal favorite, An individual I work with, and was meeting for the first time, asked what my spouse did. I hesitantly responded, “He’s a Police Officer.” She explained her son had been into some trouble. I changed the subject. I return to work the next day and first words out of her mouth, “Oh I asked my son about your husband. My son says your husband is a real dick!” (Now most wives, may walk away, try to downplay it, or give some nice politically correct reason…I’m not so good at that, and at this time I had been working for 20 hours already and had 10 more to go, so…) My response, “Well then your son must be a real piece of shit! Cause my husband is only a dick if ya really earn it!” Needless to say, she didn’t have much of a response. This is an example, of how your life changes as the spouse of an Officer. People think this is okay, they think they have to tell you. Luckily all of us spouses are stronger than anyone knows and we get used to this banter and with time, (I’m still working on it) you learn to ignore it.
I don’t want people to think that their job is completely unappreciated, it isn’t. There are most definitely people that do support them. All sorts of people in our community have shown an outpouring of support to our officers in these past few weeks. Simply telling an Officer, Thank-You, may be the one and only positive experience they have that day. I can tell you that all of our Officers are hurting right now, not just in Marshalltown, but Nation wide. Some cover the hurt with strength and attitude, some with laughter and smiles others do not cover it, but meet it with anger and resent while trying to maintain a professional demeanor and appearance. So remember that when you see an Officer and they don’t have a smile on their face, or they aren’t dancing in the street with people. Their family, their co-workers, their brothers and sisters are being hunted & murdered, and they don’t know if at any second, they are next.
So be compassionate, listen, and show your support.
Time for me to put that uniform into the dryer. This is a load of laundry that I will never forget. I only hope, that I get the honor of washing that uniform for many, many years to come.Post Views: 266
By Ricardo — 7 years ago
I try to stay away from politics as much as possible with my blog but when it comes to the Internet, I have to say something. I had seen this topic a few weeks ago when my friend Gus posted it on his Facebook wall but I had not taken the time to check it out. This morning before I came into work I finally got the chance and I am outraged. Like all of you, I love the Internet! We do everything on there now. We shop, we educate ourselves, we express ourselves, and we communicate. The last two parts of my previous sentence are the most important part of the Internet in my opinion. Don’t get me wrong though, I’m all about educating myself over the Internet, but I’m more involved in expressing myself and communicating with others. What would we do without the Internet? I know, it’s a lame question, but there are a lot of people out there saying that we need to go outside and get back to our roots. We need to go back, to an extent, to how it used to be before the Internet. It would be awesome to go out and run around or visit family or go on vacation but what if you can’t? What if you’re stuck at home because of an illness or disability and the only way you can get out is by visiting a site that holds information on a vacation spot you would love to go to? What then? With the Internet, we are able to visit places and learn things we wouldn’t normally be able to do at a moments notice. Think about everything you have done with the help of the Internet. I know there are bad things on there but I believe that the good outweighs the bad. I mean seriously, stop for a moment and marinade on what you’ve done, who you’ve found, and how you’ve expressed yourself or communicated. Now that you’ve taken a moment to reflect on this let’s think about something else.
What if the Internet we know today was shifted, regulated, and the very freedom of it, was taken away? It’s a scary thought if you ask me and right now there is a bill called, “PROTECT IP Act” that Congress is trying to pass that would kill the Internet. From what I have read the bill is being passed off as a good thing. The bill is set to stop Piracy and protect against copyright infringement. Good thing? Yes, but there will always be pirates. There is a lot to this bill so I won’t go deep into it. Instead, I will offer a link in order for you to educate yourself on this matter. What I can tell you is that if this is passed a lot of things will change. For example, sites such as WordPress could be in danger. The one site I blog my thoughts and opinions on would be at risk. I say this because if the bill were to pass it would give property owners the right to sue and take down those who allow the content to be added on their site, i.e. WordPress. I posted on Saturday Morning Cartoons a few months back and I used video’s from YouTube to take everyone back in time to when Saturday Morning Cartoons were worth watching. Now with this bill in place it’s possible that Disney or whoever else owns the property could sue WordPress and take down my post. The same goes for YouTube, Facebook, and Twitter. We post non-stop on these sites with video’s and such to express ourselves and communicate. With this in place, we would no longer have that luxury.
Like many others, I see the Internet as a platform for education, and expression of many things. People are out there right now expressing themselves by showing off their musical talents and covering well known songs. Sometimes the new talent is able to pull off a better version of the well known song and it’s awesome! It’s great to have this freedom. It’s great that we can upload a video created by us with music in the background and post it for the world to see. Many people have been tapped by big companies because of their talent. Without the freedom of the Internet, the people would not be able to express themselves in such a way. Without the Internet and how it is today, we might not have Facebook, Twitter, or YouTube. If this bill passes we might not have anything at all. Do you want to end up like one of the countries we see on the news that has the Internet blocked off? Are we going to roll over and let them regulate the freedom we currently have over the Internet? I would hope not! Although it seems impossible that this could happen because of the money that certain sites bring in, believe me when I say that it can happen. All it takes is for you, the people, to let them take it from us. The ball is in our court and we can stop this from happening. I have provided a video below and a link to a site, that is not of my creation, but of another fighter of the cause. Follow the link and you will be able to sign and send off a letter to Congress in order to express your concern. Our pleas may not matter but we need to at least try. Let’s band together and do our best to stop this bill. It’s time to fight for the Internet. It’s time to take a stand!Post Views: 211